Friday, January 25, 2013

Signatures


A few years ago I was signing some paperwork with my mother. She saw how I signed them and exclaimed, “You sign just like your dad!” My mother and father’s signatures are at opposite ends of the signature spectrum. My mother has an elegant signature, much like the cursive writing we learned in elementary school. My father’s signature is written fast and appears to be a disorganized mess. In his defense, if you examine it you can see there’s actually method to the madness, and signing this way makes his signature distinct and hard to duplicate. My own signature falls between the two. It starts elegant, like my mother, but degenerates with each letter. I remember signing some sort of form with one of my professors back in college. I told him my full name, and he replied, “I never would have guessed that based on your signature.” I feel like my signature tries to achieve some sort of happy medium between the styles of my mother and father but in reality fails utterly. It tries to please everyone but ends up pleasing no one.

In a sense my signature is very much a manifestation of myself, and I suspect to a small degree the same could be said of others. For me it embodies the dichotomy of my life: the methodical and the erratic, the dogmatic and the flexible, the discipline and the laziness, the courage and the cowardice, the wisdom and the foolishness, the contentment and the despair, the seriousness and the clown.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Kaiser



Kaiser
My best enemy
We weren’t always this way
It was our time in 150/151 that brought us together
The two of us
Among the eight elite chosen for that class
Running a gauntlet few could withstand
Let alone desire

You bested me several times
And yet you never triumphed
Quiz after quiz
Assignment after assignment
You came out on top
But when it really mattered, I won

It was at the end of the year that I seized victory
And won your contempt of myself
Final exams
We were all looking to score a win at the end of the season
You came to me with a proposition:
Take a fall and guarantee your victory
I gave no definite reply
But in my head I vowed to best you
And so it was when the scores came out
I was number one
And even more humiliating,
You were number three

Fast-forward a little while
It was yearbook-signing time
I wrote three separate entries in your yearbook
You wrote two in mine
I can tell which one you wrote first
And I still love reading them
The first was the generic one
Good luck, keep in touch, all the usual nonsense we write in high school
The second was a scathing diatribe
Against everything that you deemed wrong with me
The crazy (and strangely enjoyable) thing about it
Was that you were mostly right

Time passes
Memory fades
Forgive; maybe
Forget; never

Sunday, January 20, 2013

IQ Alpha


IQ Alpha
You are the beginning
I am the end
You are finesse
I am force
You are the light
I am the darkness

The IQ designation was given by others
Alpha and Omega we took ourselves
We are men of details
Committed to knowledge and the pursuit of wisdom
Which one of us was greater?
The answer is known by both and neither of us

You always had your ways with words
Bringing Shakespearean nuance to every sentence
You could make anything seem grand
With your distinct turn of phrase
Now you're studying law in NYC
And I am already seeing the possiblities
Your own law firm,
IQ Alpha and Associates
Your partners will be Macbeth, Othello, Hamlet, King Lear, Henry IV, Prospero, Caesar
And possibly Richard III (and maybe even Petruchio, if you're feeling bold)

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Starlight


Starlight
I can't always see you
But you're always there
You're off in the distance
But your light still reaches the earth
Always shining
Sometimes flickering
Occasionally blocked from view
But never gone

It will be a dark day
And an even darker night
When you're gone
We'll all feel your absense
And miss the light you shone on everything

Bertrand


Bertrand
In an age of intellectual conformity
You stand as one of the few contrarians

Disagreeing with almost everything
Sometimes just for fun or the sake of disagreement

You were a serial troublemaker for some of our teachers
But in the best way possible in that you challenged their wisdom
Rather than just absorbing it like most others
True, you also partook in traditional trouble making
Like that one time you brought that RC car to class

We shared a passion for criticizing and mocking
The various works of garbage literature that we had to read
Our essays exposed the conspiracies and leftist agendas in their authors
Or just pointed out the silliness of their contrived plot lines

If only we could get a TV show with some of our friends
Dedicated to saying the nuttiest things ever
It seems far fetched, but hey
The History Channel gave a show to that guy on Ancient Aliens
And I'm confident would could concoct theories ever more absurd that his
So there's always hope

Friday, January 11, 2013

BlckThndr


BlckThndr
My old friend
We go back a long ways
Yours is one of the most significant appearances in my life

Let's turn back the clock a little
To a time few know about
My forces were being eviscerated
I had been in a steady retreat for over a year
As an overwhelming army came at me from every side
And relentlessly pursued me to the ends of the earth
Then you appeared and reinforced my position
Giving me the strength to hold the line
The war was far from over
But it was no longer a doomed campaign

I think that's why I was so loyal to you
If you were going, I was going
If you said yes, I said yes
If you didn't like it, I didn't like it

I don't think I realized then
That you endured a few attacks for taking my side
I don't think I ever thanked you either
Or could ever pay you back for what you did

You also posed to me a simple question
A single question
With infinite consequence
And that's how I met Him

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Pyramid Scheme


Pyramid Scheme
You always said you were going to cheat your way through life
And that’s exactly what you did
How much of your advancement was taken from others?
Did you ever earn an honest grade?
What’s even worse were the people like me
Who for some reason helped you along

Case in point: AP European History
It was only because of me you got a B in that class
And a recommendation to advance to the next AP class
During the AP exam you sat across from me
I got the maximum score
Guess what? So did you!

One of the great mysteries of high school
Is why others and myself did these things for you
What did we gain from it?
Nothing
What did you gain from it?
Everything

I understand you’re now working for a shady legal firm
That is suspected of being a pyramid scheme
You always said you were going to cheat your way through life
And that’s exactly what you’ve done

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Fresh Prince of India


Fresh Prince of India
You hold the record
For the most dramatic transformation during high school
From Indian FOB to hip-hop wanna-be

I remember when we first met during freshman year
It was lunch and you came over with another guy
You were so quiet
And seemed a bit intimidated about being in high school
We were all foreigners entering that environment
But you especially so

Time passed
The FOB disappeared
Your talk changed
Your clothes changed
Your music changed
Your style changed
You became Americanized in one of the most comical ways possible
Gone was the timid boy of freshman year
Calling out the honeys was the balla guy of junior and senior year
“Hi” was replaced with “wassup?”
Do you even remember what you used to be like?
Or do you not like to think about it?

I think I understand part of why you changed
But your trading of one stereotype for another
I can’t quite wrap my head around
The old you could not survive high school
But I’m not sure the new you was really you at all
Just a smokescreen; a cover
To hide what you thought was undesirable
You had to keep that old Indian side of you hidden

High school is over
It’s trivialities expended
Maybe now that you’re beyond that nonsense
You can finally be comfortable in your own skin

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Polska


Polska
How are you still alive?
In spite of everything you do
How do you persevere?

Always you are straddling the line
Between genius and idiocy

Over the years your escapades have provided us with many stories
But there’s one that stands out in my mind
You gave us the greatest employment story ever told
You got a job at Albertsons in San Diego
Even though you were going to school at UC Irvine
Your manager came up to work out your schedule
And then you told her your situation
You worked for exactly two weeks over winter break
And your manager hated you every moment of it
Words cannot describe the glory of this coup